All That I Wanted to Say
What you call sacrilege
I call staying alive
Picket signs or picket fences
Serenity O call thee faithful
All that I wanted to say
Is lost in dreams and empty vacant poetry
What you call wrong
I call free
What you call obscene
I call it truth divine
Because I am the one on this cross I bare
Not you
Never for you will I be led astray
Never for me will I walk away
All that I wanted to say
My soul runs free with the wolves of black and gray
My spirituality is neither here nor there
And in my dreams I am running free
A slave breaking free of his strains
And who are you and what do you do
You reap my heart and you bury my needs
And who are you
And what do you want
I can’t earn a living nor do I give a fuck
If I’m down on my luck it’s okay
Because I could never walk without a burden to bare
Nor do I care about all eyes on me
All eyes on thee
Who are you and what do you say
Will I walk down those golden streets one more time
Will I gain permit to be myself
Or do I have to follow where so many others fell
Who are you and what do you want
I paid my dues the moment I arrived
and I’ll pay them long when I’m gone
Where do I walk to
Who do I love
Who are you and what do you plea
All that I wanted to say is bleeding out of me
Can’t you see that
I’m a whore like any other else out there
With my hands to the sky
Prayers not knelt
Just another child of a flawed God
Prayers not knelt; it’s so easy
to illuminate this thought
Can’t you see that I am nobody’s hero
No one’s saint, just another heart trying to get out alive
I can’t play no game because there is nothing to save
All that I wanted to say is bleeding out of me
You call it shameless
I call it real as it gets
You call it pathetic, hey man
I am just trying to get along here
Can you spare me some time to change my ways
Because I’ve been un-perfected in those eyes of you
Can you give me some spare change so I can call for my executor
Shot down in senseless violence and serenity
Can you spare me some time because time is greedy
Another self-importance with its claws in our eyes
All that I wanted to say
What you call filth I call poetry
Poetry is ugly, the reality that holds us barred and tied
Poetry is dangerous in the hands of a few
All that I wanted to say, all that I wanted to be
I’ve been spat on for so long this is now my vanity talking
And healing, come over and heal me as I lay here
All that I wanted to say
Is bleeding out of me
Come here and stitch me up
Come on and give me my last rights
We all have a right to be silent
Come here and scream me with me
With me
In the silence
Silence
All that I wanted to say is bleeding out of me
Bleeding and repeating
Gone
-Jon Powder-