The Top 50 Albums of 2014: A Music Geek Blog.

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And so continues on with my yearly ‘Best of’ music list.
Music is my obsession, I am always looking for new and interesting variety of bands and singers to check out. These selections are my favorites that have been released throughout the year.
So, here it is, my top 50 albums, I will also include my 3 favorite songs from each album.

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The top 50 albums of the year.
Also, my top 3 favorite songs from each album.

50. Velvet Acid Christ – Subconscious Landscapes
50 Subconscious Landscapes
THE LAST GOODBYE/ DIRE/ TASTE THE SIN

49. Die Antwoord – Donker Mag
49 Donker Mag
I DON’T DWANK/ RAT TRAP 666/ UGLY BOY

48. Pixies – Indie Cindy
48 Indie Cindy
WHAT GOES BOOM/ ANOTHER TOE IN THE OCEAN/ INDIE CINDY

47. Grieves – Winter & The Wolves
47 Winter & The Wolves
SHREDS/ SMOKE IN THE NIGHT/ SERPENTS

46. Deptford Goth – Songs
46 Songs
DUST/ A SHELTER, A WEAPON/ THE LOOP

45. Interpol – El Pintor
45 El Pintor
ANYWHERE/ EVERYTHING IS WRONG/ SAME TOWN NEW STORY

44. Davey Suicide – World Wide Suicide
44 World Wide Suicide
UNTIL WE’RE DEAD/ NOTHING IS SCARED/ THE DEVIL INSIDE

43. Billy Idol – Kings & Queens of the Underground
43 Kings & Queens of the Underground
BITTER PILL/ CAN’T BREAK ME DOWN/ WHISKEY AND PILLS

42. John 5 – Careful With That Axe
42 Careful With That Axe
THIS IS MY RIFLE/ THE DREAM SLAYER/ SIX HUNDRED AND SIXTY SIX PICKERS IN HELL

41. Die Mannequin – Neon Zero
41 Neon Zero
GIRLS AT THE MALL/ MURDER ON THE DANCEFLOOR/ WE OWN THE NIGHT

40. The Generators – Life Gives Like Takes
40 Life Gives Like Takes
PERFUME & POISON/ GOTTA BE A BETTER WAY/ LIFE GIVES LIFE TAKES

39. Clan of Xymox – Matters of Mind, Body and Spirit
39 Matters of Mind, Body and Spirit
HAND IN GLOVE/ KISS AND TELL/ YOUR OWN WAY

38. Damien Rice – My Favourite Faded Fantasy
38 My Favourite Faded Fantasy
THE GREATEST BASTARD/ MY FAVORITE FADED FANTASY/ COLOUR ME IN

37. Casey Stratton – Lantern Through the Labyrinth
37 Lantern Through the Labyrinth
CLEPSYDRA/ LOOKING GLASS/ THE OTHER SIDE

36. Rancid – …Honor is All We Know
36 ...Honor is All We Know
GRAVE DIGGER/ EVIL’S MY FRIEND/ ALREADY DEAD

35. Matt Alber – Wind Sand Stars
35 Wind Sand Stars
HANDSOME MAN/ THE STARS/ RESCUE

34. Johnny Hollow – A Collection of Creatures
34 A Collection of Creatures
BLOODSUCKERS/ PRAYER/ I AM STRECHED OUT OVER YOUR GRAVE

33. Circa Survive – Descensus
33 Descensus
SOVEREIGN CIRCLES/ ONLY THE SUN/ SCHEMA

32. Insomnium – Shadows of the Dying Sun
32 Shadows of the Dying Sun
WHILE WE SLEEP/ BLACK HEART REBELLION/ THE RIVER

31. The Hidden Cameras – Age
31 Age
GAY GOTH SCENE/ BREAD FOR BRAT/ ORDINARY OVER YOU

30. Combichrist – We Love You
30 We Love You
WE RULE THE WORLD MOTHERFUCKERS/ FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS/ SATANS PROPAGANDA

29. Sierra Swan – Good Soldier
29 Good Soldier
NO MATTER HOW MUCH/ EMOTIONAL/ SAD AFFAIR

28. Echo & The Bunnymen – Meteorites
28 Meteorites
CONSTANTINOPLE/ HOLY MOSES/ BURN IT DOWN

27. King Dude – Fear
27 Fear
FEAR IS ALL YOU KNOW/ DEMON CALLER NUMBER 9/ WATCHING OVER YOU

26. Voltaire – Raised by Bats
26 Raised By Bats
OH MY GOTH!/ RAISED BY BATS/ THE MASQUERADE

25. Jinkx Monsoon – The Inevitable Album
25 The Inevitable Album
COFFEE & WINE/ WHAT ABOU DEBBIE/ NO ONE AS SORRY AS ME

24. The Twilight Sad – Nobody Wants To Be Here And Nobody Wants To Leave
24 Nobody Wants To Be Here And Nobody Wants To Leave
LAST JANUARY/ LEAVE THE HOUSE/ SOMETIMES I WISHED I COULD FALL ASLEEP

23. Hozier – Hozier
23 Hozier
TAKE ME TO CHURCH/ FOREIGNER’S GOD/ TO BE ALONE

22. Peter Murphy – Lion
22 Lions
HANG UP/ I’M ON YOUR SIDE/ HOLY CLOWN

21. Triptykon – Melana Chasmata
21 Melana Chasmata
DEMON PACT/ BLACK SNOW/ IN THE SLEEP OF DEATH

20. Nim Vind – Saturday Night Séance Songs
20 Saturday Night Seance Songs
E.S.P./ ASTRONOMICON/ WHERE I’M FROM

19. Brody Dalle – Diploid Love
19 Diploid Love
MEET THE FOETUS-OH THE JOY/ DON’T MESS WITH ME/ DRESSED IN DREAMS

18. Xiu Xiu – Angel Guts: Red Classroom
18 Angel Guts - Red Classroom
BOTANICA DE LOS ANGELES/ A KNIFE IN THE SUN/ STUPID IN THE DARK

17. VANIISH – Memory Work
17 Memory Work
COLD FASCINATION/ KALEIDOSCOPED/ LA FOI AU FIL DE L’EAU

16. Cygnets – Isolator
16 Isolator
GALLOWS/ SICK DEVICE/ HAUNT YOU

15. Trust – Joyland
15 Joyland
CAPITOL/ ARE WE ARC/ ICABOD

14. Ex Cops – Daggers
14 Daggers
BLACK SOAP/ WEIRD WITH YOU/ DAGGERS

13. Gerard Way – Hesitant Alien
13 Hesitant Alien
ACTION CAT/ THE BUREAU/ ZERO ZERO

12. Zola Jesus – Taiga
12 Tiaga
NAIL/ DANGEROUS DAYS/ DUST

11. The Gaslight Anthem – Get Hurt
11 Get Hurt
BREAK YOUR HEART/ SELECTED POEMS/ STAY VICIOUS

10. Lykke Li – I Never Learn
10 I Never Learn
HEART OF STEEL/ I NEVER LEARN/ SLEEPING ALONE

9. Atmosphere – Southsiders
9 Southsiders
BITTER/ ARTHUR’S SONG/ FORTUNATE

8. Bella Morte – Exorcisms
8 Exorcisms
EXORCISMS/ THE DARK/ NEVER LET ME DOWN AGAIN

7. Cygnets – Sleepwalkers
7 Sleepwalkers
LILYA FOREVER/ BORN IN VAIN/ DATA GHOSTS

6. William Control – The Neuromancer
6 The Neuromancer
GOD IS DEAD/ WHERE THE ANGELS BURN/ ADORE (FALL IN LOVE FOREVER)

5. The Birthday Massacre – Superstition
5 Superstition
SURRENDER/ OCEANIA/ TRINITY

4. The Raveonettes – Pe’ahi
4 Pe'ahi
SUMMER ENDS/ SISTERS/ ENDLESS SLEEPER

3. Behemoth – The Satanist
3 The Satanist
AMEN/ THE SATANIST/ MESSE NOIRE

2. Smashing Pumpkins – Monuments To An Elegy
2 Monuments To An Elegy
DORIAN/ TIBERIUS/ ANTI-HERO

1. Against Me! – Transgender Dysphoria Blues
1 Transgender Dysphoria Blues
BLACK ME OUT/ PARYLITIC STATES/ TRUE TRANS SOUL REBEL

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Here are the previous music geek posts:
My 10 Favorite Music Videos from 2013: https://dandyjon.wordpress.com/2013/12/29/the-top-10-music-videos-of-2013/
Top Albums of 2013: https://dandyjon.wordpress.com/2013/12/02/the-top-50-of-2013-a-music-geek-blog/
Top Albums of 2012 (REVISED): https://dandyjon.wordpress.com/2013/03/14/the-top-50-of-2012-revised-a-music-geek-entry/
Top Albums of 2012: https://dandyjon.wordpress.com/2012/12/06/the-top-50-of-2012-a-music-geek-blog/
Top Albums of 2011: http://dandyjon.blogspot.ca/2011/12/my-top-15-of-2011-music-geek-note.html
Top Albums of 2010: http://dandyjon.blogspot.ca/2011/12/my-top-15-of-2010-music-geek-note.html
Top Albums of 2009: http://dandyjon.blogspot.ca/2011/12/my-top-15-of-2009-music-geek-note.html

-Dandy Jon-

Music Geek: My 10 Favorite Music Videos of 2014

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And so continues on with my yearly ‘Best of’ music geek lists.
My second time putting together a top 10 for music videos.
This is just a list of my 10 favorites from the past year.
Enjoy.

10. The Raveonettes – Killer in the Streets

9. Atmosphere – Bitter

8. Cygnets – Gallows

7. Ex Cops – Black Soap

6. Gary Numan – I Am Dust

5. The Birthday Massacre – Beyond

4. Jamie T – Zombie

3. Trust – Capitol

2. Bella Morte – Exorcisms

1. Hozier – Take Me to Church

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Music Geek: 50 Essential Albums/My Winter Music

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Winter Music Entry:
Its nearly winter, according to the calendar, but its been snowing on and off since this past Saturday, so as far as I am concerned it is winter- well, winter enough, its close enough for me to assemble my essential winter music list, winter is my favorite season, I always feel at my most creative during this time of year, it is also a surreal time for me, I don’t know why, I can’t explain why, I just feel different during this time of year. This list took me awhile to compile, there are many albums I consider to have a winter element to them, these are my personal favorites, I tend to listen to these ones a lot during this time, this was a fun and challenging list to put together.
And also, as per usual, I included mentioning my 3 favorite songs from each album.

Enjoy. :)

50. Casey Stratton – Hear the City
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TURNING THE PAGE/ HEAR THE CITY/ INSIDE OUT

49. The Birthday Massacre – Hide and Seek
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THE LONG WAY HOME/ LEAVING TONIGHT/ CALLING

48. Ólafur Arnalds – For Now I Am Winter
48
FOR NOW I AM WINTER/ SUDDEN THROW/ ONLY THE WINDS

47. VNV Nation – Judgement
47
ILLUSION/ NEMESIS/ DESCENT

46. Björk – Medúlla
46
WHERE IS THE LINE/ MOUTH’S CRADLE/ PLEASURE IS ALL MINE

45. David Bowie – ‘Hours…’
45
SEVEN/ IF I’M DREAMING MY LIFE/ NEW ANGELS OF PROMISE

44. Slowdive – Souvlaki
44
WHEN THE SUN HITS/ MACHINE GUN/ DAGGER

43. Xiu Xiu – Dear God, I Hate Myself
43
GRAY DEATH/ DEAR GOD, I HATE MYSELF/ APPLE FOR A BRAIN

42. Sondre Lerche – Heartbeat Radio
42
HEARTBEAT RADIO/ WORDS AND MUSIC/ IF ONLY

41. Poe – Haunted
41
HAUNTED/ HEY PRETTY/ CONTROL

40. Arcade Fire – Neon Bible
40
MY BODY IS A CAGE/ WINDOWSILL/ BLACK MIRROR

39. Lykke Li – Wounded Rhymes
39
SADNESS IS A BLESSING/ I FOLLOW RIVERS/ YOUTH KNOWS NO PAIN

38. Cold Showers – Love and Regret
38
I DON’T MIND/ BC/ VIOLENT CRIES

37. My Dying Bride – For Lies I Sire
37
THE LIES I SIRE/ MY BODY, A FUNERAL/ ECHOES FROM A HOLLOW SOUL

36. Bella Morte – Where Shadows Lie
36
THE METRO/ DECEMBER DREAMS/ WHERE SHADOWS LIE

35. Zola Jesus – Conatus
35
LICK THE PALM OF THE BURNING HANDSHAKE/ SKIN/ HIKIKOMORI

34. Gem Club – Breakers
34
252/ RED ARROW (JOHN)/ IN WAVELENGTHS

33. Stars – The Five Ghosts
33
DEAD HEARTS/ HE DREAMS HE’S AWAKE/ I DIED SO I COULD HAUNT YOU

32. Deptford Goth – Life After Defo
32
FEEL REAL/ BLOODY LIP/ UNION

31. The Big Pink – Future This
31
STAY GOLD/ 77/ THE PALACE

30. Auf der Maur – Out of Our Minds
30
OUT OF OUR MINDS/ 22 BELOW/ FATHER’S GRAVE

29. Exitmusic – Passage
29
THE NIGHT/ THE COLD/ PASSAGE

28. Jay Brannan – Goddamned
28
AMERICAN IDOL/ GODDAMNED/ CAN’T HAVE IT ALL

27. Marilyn Manson – Holy Wood (In the Shadow of the Valley of Death)
27
GODEATGOD/ THE NOBODIES/ LAMB OF GOD

26. The Postal Service – Gave Up
26
BRAND NEW COLONY/ SUCH GREAT HEIGHTS/ SLEEPING IN

25. David Lynch – The Big Dream
25
WISHIN’ WELL/ LAST CALL/ ARE YOU SURE

24. This Mortal Coil – Blood
24
MR. SOMEWHERE/ I COME AND STAND AT EVERY DOOR/ I AM THE COSMOS

23. Nine Inch Nails – The Fragile
23
SOMEWHAT DAMAGED/ THE GREAT BELOW/ UNDERNEATH IT ALL

22. White Lies – To Lose My Life
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DEATH/ FROM THE STARS/ FAREWELL TO THE FAIRGROUND

21. Cradle of Filth – Nymphetamine
21
NYMPHETAMINE/ GILDED CUNT/ ENGLISH FIRE

20. Heavens – Patent Pending
20
LEAVE/ WATCHING YOU/ TRUE HATE

19. The Twilight Sad – No One Can Ever Know
19
NIL/ ANOTHER BED/ ALPHABET

18. HIM – Love Metal
18
THE FUNERAL OF HEARTS/ SOUL ON FIRE/ THE PATH

17. Moby – Wait for Me
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SHOT IN THE BACK OF THE HEAD/ ISOLATE/ GHOST RETURN

16. Glasvegas – Glasvegas
16
GERALDINE/ S.A.D. LIGHT/ FLOWERS & FOOTBALL TOPS

15. The Cure – Pornography
15
COLD/ A STRANGE DAY/ ONE HUNDRED YEARS

14. Damien Rice – 9
14
ROOTLESS TREE/ ME, MY YOKE & I/ COCONUT SKINS

13. Active Child – You Are All I See
13
JOHNNY BELINDA/ SHIELD & SWORD/ YOU ARE ALL I SEE

12. M83 – Digital Shades
12
COLORING THE VOID/ MY OWN STRANGE PATH/ THE HIGHEST JOURNEY

11. AFI – Decemberunderground
11
LOVE LIKE WINTER/ THE KILLING LIGHTS/ THE INTERVIEW

10. Joy Division – Closer
10
DECADES/ ISOLATION/ TWENTY FOUR HOURS

9. Rufus Wainwright – Want One
9
OH WHAT A WORLD/ DINNER AT EIGHT/ VIBRATE

8. The Magnetic Fields – 69 Love Songs
8
THE BOOK OF LOVE. EPITAPH FOR MY HEART/ YOU’RE MY ONLY HOME

7. The Raveonettes – Lust Lust Lust
7
LUST/ EXPELLED FROM LOVE/ BLACK SATIN

6. Elliott Smith – From a Basement on the Hill
6
A FOND FAREWELL/ KING’S CROSSING/
A DISTORTED REALITY IS NOW A NECESSITY TO BE FREE

5. Neko Case – Fox Confessor Brings the Flood
5
HOLD ON, HOLD ON/ THE NEEDLE HAS LANDED/ A WIDOW’S TOAST

4. Sigur Rós – ()
4
UNTITLED III/ UNTITLED IV/ UNTITLED VIII

3. Neverending White Lights – Act I: Goodbye Friends of the Heavenly Bodies
3
ANGELS & SAINTS/ THIS LONGING/ LIFE IS A DEAD SCENE

2. Chris Garneau – Music For Tourists
2
BLACK & BLUE/ HYMN/ CASTLE-TIME

1. Smashing pumpkins – Adore
1
SHAME/ BEHOLD! THE NIGHT MARE/ BLANK PAGE

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November: Scattered Thoughts

The Month of November.

This is a collection of scattered thoughts, I’ve been lost in thought lately, more so than usual.
This month always seems to put me in a different state of mind, a different state of being.
November has always been a strange month for me, its like being caught in perpetual twilight, with no light or dark in sight, just a constant state of twilight, a constant state of various dreams.

Creatively, this month always puts me in a surreal state of mind, a million scattered thoughts, swirling around in my head, many different ideas trying to find their way out and onto the paper, or canvas or computer screen. Its almost a constant dream state I am in. I usually put my headphones on when I feel this scattered, music usually drives me creatively when I feel emotionally, mentally and spiritually drained, music is the fuel that keeps the fire burning when I myself feel like I am going through some personal or outer hell.

On the inside I can feel many emotions colliding and crashing with another, maybe its because autumn is slowly transitioning into winter, the melancholy season. My favorite season. Peering outside into the cold, watching snow fall from the sky, late at night, peacefully. Sometimes on those kinds of nights I remind myself that there is still beauty in this world worth holding true.

The month of November for me, is a rather odd time, I’ve always made my most personal pieces during this time, I usually plan out what I want to do when I work on my art, I write lists, I make sure that I finish what I set out to do, but this month I can’t be bothered to write my lists, I push myself differently during this time of year, more so on the inside, me vs. myself and my self critical judgment, I can be fucking harsh on myself when I get in ‘the zone’ creatively, if I don’t like what I’m doing I will draw or paint over and begin again, or I will throw it all out completely and spend my hours brooding and cursing myself, its something I need to work on, but I think every artist or writer has a problem like this, or close to it.

Despite being a self critical prick towards myself, I can’t stop, making art is everything to me.
I can’t stop being creative, its everything to me, that constant thirst for knowledge.
Always climbing the obstacles, even when it feels like there is nothing worth fighting for, nothing worth expressing. I can’t stop. Art is my everything.

I battle depression on a daily basis, I have to constantly push myself forward because I don’t want to go backwards, I don’t want to repeat past situations, I’ve come along way and the road I travel isn’t easy, its a long road with many turns and obstacles. But that is life, I guess. I think this month for me always puts me in a self reflective mood, contemplative, deep in thought, looking at ghosts from the past.

The month of November is such an odd month, its strange to think how fast the year has gone by. Its strange to think I made it to 30, its a strange time to be alive in this world, sometimes you have to stop and look around, take a deep breath, and just observe your surroundings, soon winter will come. soon a new year will arrive. Strange how fast time can go by, no one can master time, but still, one moment its January than the next moment it is November, time goes by too fast sometimes.

Creatively, I am just going with the flow, not trying to over-think anything, i worked on 10 pieces tonight, I would’ve worked on more, but I don’t want to exhaust myself, although I tend to more than I would like to admit. But I feel good creatively, spiritually, not as much. There are piles upon piles of reasons why I could explain that, but they are rather too personal for me to talk about in a blog entry. Maybe I’ll find some way to release some of that anxiety into future art pieces, art is the best kind of therapy. For me anyways, haha.

Anyways, I am having an insomniac kind of night, where it is just me and my thoughts, scattered as they are. But even insomnia feels weird- well, weirder, in November. This is just a strange month for me, I guess. I could go on and on, but I think I already have, I got many scattered thoughts, but I’ll save some of them for my art, and poems and short stories, basically anything I can work on creatively.

I think its time to put on my headphones and let the music guide me to calmer places. Calmer oceans.
Restful thoughts, slowly drifting into sleep.

-Dandy Jon-

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Wandering Thoughts: Art

I have now reached 1200 art pieces on my Deviant Art page.
Its a surreal moment for me.

I work on my art as a way of therapy sometimes, sometimes I work on my art just for fun, sometimes I just see where my mind will go to on auto-pilot. I put my headphones on, draw to the music, paint to the melody, sometimes I’m wandering my mind/thoughts in the silence, I never really like to talk about what the meanings are in the images that I create, I usually leave it up to the viewer, because the meaning is different with each person, sometimes I push myself too far, to the point of mental and psychical exhaustion, raw blistered fingers, sore tired arms, constant painful migraines, endless restless thoughts. And while I know some images may look silly, some may look horrid, some may look beautiful, but unsettling, just know, I put my all into what I do, stopping isn’t an option, I couldn’t stop, even if I wanted to, this is what flows in my veins, I bleed this art. Its a part of me. I push myself always forward, when I find a barrier I tear it down and continue to move forward, for personal growth, for that thirst for knowledge, to always want to better myself. I don’t believe in comfort zones, I’m not used to being comfortable for too long. Although, I DO feel good right now, my mind is a bit scattered though- already planning out what I want to make next, stopping is not an option and it never will be, constantly moving forward is the goal, in life and in my art, I’m sitting here just reflecting, listening to a mixture of VNV Nation, Smashing Pumpkins, Chelsea Wolfe and Zola Jesus’ new album (absolutely amazing). Its a nice quiet night/morning, insomnia always comes to pay me a visit, I’m used to it at this point. Sometimes my favorite ideas come to me on these late insomnia nights. Anyways, I just felt like venting some wandering/mixed thoughts.
There are many dreams to conjure.
There are many thoughts to explore.
There is always more art to create.
There are so many endless dreams.
Art is my everything, art is my life.

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Music Geek: 50 Essential Albums/My Autumn Music

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Autumn Music Entry:
It is the first day of autumn, seems very appropriate to make this list today. I love the fall, its my favorite time of the year- next to winter. I was born during the autumn season, so this season is where I feel most comfortable I guess. This is a very Goth-heavy season for me, and HALLOWEEN being the centerpiece of autumn, this season is my favorite (Winter isn’t too far off). So here it is my, my 50 essential autumn albums list, this music list is a variety of albums that I tend to enjoy more so around this time of year. These albums range from punk to metal to alternative to folk to whatever. Also, I included mentioning my 3 favorite songs from each album.

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50. Night Sins – New Grave
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PLAYING DEAD/ SPECTRAL BLISS/ SHOOT ME UP

49. Zola Jesus – The Spoils
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SIX FEET (FROM MY BABY)/ TELL IT TO THE WILLOW/ DEVIL TAKE YOU

48. I Love You but I’ve Chosen Darkness – Fear Is On our Side
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ACCORDING TO PLAN/ LIGHTS/ WE CHOOSE FACES

47. Salem – King Night
47
KING NIGHT/ KILLER/ FROST

46. Love and Rockets – Seventh Dream of Teenage Heaven
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HAUNTED WHEN THE MINUTES DRAG/ IF THERE’S A HEAVEN ABOVE/ SEVENTH DREAM OF TEENAGE HEAVEN

45. My Chemical Romance – The Black Parade
45
FAMOUS LAST WORDS/ THE SHARPEST LIVES/ MAMA

44. Gary Numan – Pure
44
RIP/ MY JESUS/ WALKING WITH SHADOWS

43. Skinny Puppy – The Greater Wrong of the Right
43
GONEJA/ PRO-TEST/ I’MMORTAL

42. My Bloody Valentine – Loveless
42
SOMETIMES/ WHEN YOU SLEEP/ SOON

41. Creature Feature – The Greatest Show Unearthed
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A GOREY DEMISE/ SIX FOOT DEEP/ SUCH HORRIBLE THINGS

40. Brand New – The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me
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JESUS CHRIST/ ARCHERS/ NOT THE SUN

39. Interpol – Turn On the Bright Lights
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SAY HELLO TO THE ANGELS/ THE NEW/ OBSTACLE 1

38. Type O Negative – Life Is Killing Me
38
I DON’T WANNA BE ME/ (WE WERE) ELECTROCUTE/ ANGRY INCH

37. She Wants Revenge – She Wants Revenge
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THESE THINGS/ OUT OF CONTROL/ TEAR YOU APART

36. Arcade Fire – Funeral
36
REBELLION (LIES)/ WAKE UP/ NEIGHBORHOOD #3 (POWER OUT)

35. Ramones – Brain Drain
35
PET SEMATARY/ IGNORANCE IS BLISS/ ZERO ZERO UFO

34. The Dresden Dolls – Yes, Virginia…
34
SING/ MANDY GOES TO MED SCHOOL/ DELILAH

33. Nine Inch Nails – With Teeth
33
RIGHT WHERE IT BELONGS/ SUNSPOTS/ YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE?

32. Logan Lynn – I Killed Tomorrow Yesterday
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THINGS ARE LOOKING UP/ QUICKLY AS WE PASS/ FLY ME THROUGH

31. Xiu Xiu – A Promise
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IAN CURTIS WISHLIST/ SAD PONY GUERRILLA GIRL/ BROOKLYN DODGERS

30. AFI – Black Sails in the Sunset
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GOD CALLED IN SICK TODAY/ THE LAST KISS/ THE PRAYER POSITION

29. Fear Cult – Visionary Complex
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SEX BEAT/ IF YOU’RE WATCHING/ PEOPLE LIKE ME DIE YOUNG

28. Depeche Mode – Playing the Angel
28
JOHN THE REVELATOR/ SUFFER WELL/ PRECIOUS

27. Clan of Xymox – Darkest Hour
27
MY REALITY/ TEARS AGO/ WAKE UP MY DARLING

26. David Bowie – Scary Monsters
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ASHES TO ASHES/ SCARY MONSTERS (AND SUPER CREEPS)/ BECAUSE YOU’RE YOUNG

25. The Raveonettes – Observator
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YOUNG & COLD/ OBSERVATIONS/ CURSE THE NIGHT

24. Cygnets – Bleak Anthems
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FUCKED LIKE US/ VOTMA/ AMNESIA

23. M83 – Saturdays = Youth
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GRAVEYARD GIRL/ SKIN OF THE NIGHT/ WE OWN THE SKY

22. Johnny Hollow – Dirty Hands
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THIS HOLLOW WORLD/ SUPERHERO/ ALCHEMY

21. Christian Death – Only Theatre of Pain
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SPIRITUAL CRAMP/ ROMEO’S DISTRESS/ MYSTERIUM INIQUITATIS

20. Alkaline Trio – Good Mourning
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THIS COULD BE LOVE/ BLUE IN THE FACE/ ALL ON BLACK

19. The Damned – Phantasmagoria
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GRIMLY FIENDISH/ THE SHADOW OF LOVE/ SANCTUM SANCTORUM

18. HIM – Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights
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IN JOY AND SORROW/ BEAUTIFUL/ LOVE YOU LIKE I DO

17. Casey Stratton – The Calling of Crows
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WHEN THE FATES CAME/ GHOSTS IN THE WALLS/ ELEGY

16. Marilyn Manson – Antichrist Superstar
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MAN THAT YOU FEAR/ MINUTE OF DECAY/ 1996

15. The Cult – Love
15
RAIN/ BLACK ANGEL/ SHE SELLS SANCTUARY

14. Siouxsie and the Banshees – A Kiss in the Dreamhouse
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GREEN FINGERS/ SLOWDIVE/ PAINTED BIRD

13. King Dude – Burning Daylight
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JESUS IN THE COURTYARD/ LORD, I’M COMING HOME/ VISION IN BLACK

12. The Birthday Massacre – Pins and Needles
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SHALLOW GRAVE/ ALWAYS/ CONTROL

11. Cradle of Filth – Dusk and Her Embrace
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DUSK AND HER EMBRACE/ HEAVEN TORN ASUNDER/ FUNERAL IN CARPATHIA

10. Miss Kittin – BatBox
10
GRACE/ PLAY ME A TAPE/ KITTIN IS HIGH

9. Dead Man’s Bones – Dead Man’s Bones
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PA PA POWER/ MY BODY’S A ZOMBIE FOR YOU/ FLOWERS GROW OUT OF MY GRAVE

8. Misfits – Famous Monsters
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FIEND CLUB/ SCREAM!/ CRAWLING EYE

7. Bella Morte – Remains
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ONE WINTER NIGHT/ EVANSONG/ REMORSE

6. Chelsea Wolfe – The Grime and the Glow
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COUSINS OF THE ANTICHRIST/ ADVICE & VICES/ MOSES

5. The Sisters of Mercy – Floodland
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THIS CORROSION/ LUCRETIA MY REFLECTION/ DRIVEN LIKE THE SNOW

4. Johnny Cash – American IV: The Man Comes Around
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HURT/ THE MAN COMES AROUND/ SAM HALL

3. Smashing pumpkins – Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
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BODIES/ THRU THE EYES OF RUBY/ WE ONLY COME OUT AT NIGHT

2. The Cure – Bloodflowers
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BLOODFLOWERS/ THE LOUDEST SOUND/ THE LAST DAY OF SUMMER

1. Bauhaus – Mask
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MASK/ HOLLOW HILLS/ DANCING

Headphones

-Dandy Jon-

10 Years Later

10 YEARS LATER: I rarely ever post personal things on my page, I feel if I have something to say I’ll just put it into one of my art pieces or poems, but today marks 10 years, since I was run down, and its been 10 long years of dealing with a back pain that gets worse with each passing year. Ever since that night I’ve been dealing with a depression that feels never ending, always constantly taking new and different shapes. My back gave out on me a few days ago and I’ve been barely walking around these past few days, walking around with my walking stick, half-crippled, it hasn’t been the best year, and just looking at the calendar just put me in a surreal position right now, feeling like I am out of my body. Looking back at 10 long years, I still feel 19 sometimes when I think about that night, the shock, the fear, the anxiety that followed, the nightmares, the nightmares I still have. Y’know, I never thought I would’ve made it this far in life, didn’t expect to make it to 29- and my 30th birthday is coming in two weeks, but I’m still moving forward, still fighting. and just so you I’m not depressed right now I’m just lost in thought, reflecting. It just feels weird knowing that its been 10 years since that terrible night, the pain I feel every day is a reminder of it, but I haven’t slowed down yet, this pain wont ever stop me from creating the art I make. I’m too stubborn to let it. 10 years later and I’m still moving forward, despite many moments of self doubt and inner demons always surfacing, I’m still moving forward, looking back feels surreal though, like I am out of my body or something close to that. Its a nice night though, tonight, regardless of these thoughts coming back to remind me of just how fragile life is, I got my music on right now and I’m thinking about what art to make next, My train of thought has many stations to visit. Anyways, just looking back at it all, 10 years is a long time yet at the same time it isn’t. Funny how life is like that sometimes. Funny how quickly time flies during the good times but slows down during the rough times. My back is sore as fuck right now, but I’m resting (or at least trying to, resting as good as I can, since I feel restless most of the time, I’m not good at sitting still). This isn’t a pity me entry, this is just me looking back at 10 long years. 10 long years. I’ve dealt with a lot of countless constant bullshit. The bad times outweigh the good times sadly, but I never forget the good times.

-Jon